What would you feel if you were in a relationship and after a day when the person your in love with would say to you that he/she loved you. And just after that day, she/he changed into another person.
This is the first time in my life i had to face this. It was really hard to face at first but in the end, i just had to accept it. What to do.
There;s always a risk to fall in love with a person and be with a person. The problem lies here. If everything goes badly, the friendship can never be recovered.
I knew her for a long time before we got together and for that time, i just felt that i wanted her to be in my life. And at alot of times, i really felt unappreciated. But i guess that was love. I think when we are to face any relationship problem and that person has left. There is no way to get back with that person and also nothing can be done.
The painful part is here. If you were to wait again although she/he says he/she would let you wait. But if one day, she/he does not love you at all. How would you feel if you saw that person you loved had gone to love another person?
The problem started when she started to only send me messages at night. For a whole day, she only sent one message. And if i were to find her, she would just say “she had nothing to say to me”.
For the current time, i don’t think i want to get into any relationship for some while. It’s a really hard decision to make, especially to know that if one day something goes wrong. It can never be recovered again.
Maybe i have not fully understood girls. Or maybe she had not had any love for me at all. But only i was the one who was giving.
At some point of time, before we got together, some of what she said were really unbearable for me.
This chapter in my life can never be deleted. I was really committed into the relationship and it had to end this way. Men do not cry for a relationship. I have to admit that after i found out that she did not feel for me, i got so angry and just told her all the things i were not satisfied with her about.
The only thing i wanted was when i had some problems, i would want them to be listened to. That was all. Maybe i just feel that i have fallen for a girl who only love me temparily. She said to me that she felt stressed for us to be together. And i can wait for her for 3 years, But there was no guarantee.
The thing is here. If a guy can actually wait for three years for a girl, why does she still doubt him. This is one of the reason that i have not spoken with her ever since the time we last argued and talked.
I do not wish to see that one day, she would be with another guy and it would really be deeply hurtful. I have already halfly recovered from it. She was one of the best girls i’ve met in my life. There were only few problems. But i guess, this part of my life has been destined. After this point of my life, i have thought of donating more to the public. I have always loved to donate. Especially to help those poorer people.
I am still really stunted that it ended this way. I treated her really well. Only sometimes, i would be angry and argued with her for one reason. Just for her to listen to me more. Tha’ts all. If in a relationship you can’t talk about your own problems, then who do you talk to? This is the only part i would complain.
I have seldom gone to court girls. For me friendship is really important. I just have too many things locked up in my mind that i have not told anyone. It’s actually not a good thing to just tell all the problems. The only way now is to look forward and see what was wrong here and not to make the same mistakes again in the future.
I remember one movie “Dominos”
There is this quote that i remember. Never inject too much love, or else suffer the pain later.
I have never believe in revenge after a relationship. I would rather see happiness. Even if your not with that person but you would be happy to see her/ him be happy in their life. So remember that quote from domino, don’t get too deeply involved until you get married. Or else you will feel too much pain later.
Love is about sacrifies. So that’s love and it’s part of life.
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